Thoughts and Prayers for November 26, 2018

After waking up this morning I had some very dark thoughts about what I'm facing this week. This post is an effort to assure myself that I can face these challenges. People on this planet in droves are facing worse challenges. That only gives me some comfort. But I love life as hard as it is, and even when contemplating it getting harder and grimmer, I can still find a sense of persevering and that surrendering to those dark thoughts is not me.

The audition

I looked at the page of one liners that were supposed to make us all feel relaxed ,and I thought they could be material from the comedy shtick of the droll comedian Steven Wright. After auditioning I wanted to tell the director, producer and the other auditioneers that and maybe speak a few of his other jokes, feeling with strong certainty that I would get a few laughs. But I just recited the one I chose from their list - which surprisingly to me made a lot of people laugh. But the one liners didn't make me feel relaxed enough when time came to read from the play. I know was I stiff and most unphysical, standing in one spot and adding little emotion to the lines. It was not surprising that I didn't get the part, but it was so later to get a call from the director telling me regretfully that I didn't get the part. Such niceness seems to run counter to the idea that the world of theater is cruel and heartless. I didn't need such courtesy and I'm hungry for more auditions.