Sunday, March 29, 2020 - 11:50 am

The other night I took a walk and saw some cars racing down highway. It couldn't be a better time for that stuff, there's no traffic on the road! I'm going to go out in a little bit, get on my bike and gor a ride. I need this escape more than ever to relieve my stress.

Secluded in Place - Saturday, March 28, 2020, 1:18 PM

All this morning and now I have never felt more content than I have felt in a very long time, going back way before the Emergency. I've started the day with classical music streaming and reading some internet news, but limiting myself on that and going on to make my way through a hardbound copy of a biography of James Smithson. It's the right kind of day for this: heavily overcast and gray. It reminds me so of Saturdays of my youth that I found perfect to spend all day reading or watching some classic black and white film noir on TV with a story that I could easily get lost in (even if I couldn't understand the plot twists). I'm not completely without the fear and anxiety that I started having earlier this week. Now more than ever I've been thinking on how I am so vulnerable, because I'm in the high risk group by age, and also the fear that I'm not in a good position to weather this financially if I lose my job because we aren't selling enough athletic shirts and shoes. There also the thoughts of the people who are suffering now, some who are on ventilators, just clinging to life, or the waiters, bartenders and sales staff newly unemployed. And there are my ever present concerns about the state of my country and the politics that went sour long before this crisis. But for the moment I'm enjoying this peaceful feeling. It won't last for long so I'm going to wallow in it a little more before it's gone. Seize the moments.